ROADS - Poem #5

lookin in my rearview

fighting to go in reverse

but my shift knob wont let me

driving slowly but surely

on a new road in front of me

heart pounding cause im not sure where its leading me

just sure that this is where im suppose to be

going forward not backwards

tempted to grab the knob

shift to reverse

drive back

& find my way on your road again

and even though it was curvy

i drove like a pro

knew it like the back of my hand

i knew where to go

no GPS needed

bumps came by no surprise

and i was ready for sharp turns

even though they fucked up my wheels & brakes

i still took the risk each time

no map needed

this route was tattooed in my brain

now i can never forget it

thinkin every route is the same

and you are to blame

sometimes i hate you for that

so now i sit here

lookin in my rearview

thinkin if i should drive forward & get on a new road

will my brakes be ready for these ditches

am i the only one riding this road?

cause lord knows im not sharing a road with other bitches

will your yellow lines keep me guided?

road signs protect me from any accidents?

will you warn me from traffic any time you feel like cheating?

what happens if i get in an accident & my heart stops beating?

then what? FUCK IT?

all im saying is ..

my wheels are tired of rolling on the same rocky roads.